[This letter was sent c/o Col. Courser.]W-MCP5-6.376 TO ESTIMATE RUTH ESTHER BALDWIN [MCQUESTEN] from Ann Elizabeth R. & Ann Orr
Sep 30 1843
To: Estimate Ruth Esther Baldwin, Nashville, New Hampshire, [U.S.A.]
From: Bedford, New Hampshire, [U.S.A.]
My Dear Miss Baldwin,
You have probably heard by Col. Courser my decision respecting my return to Nashua which has not been made hastily, or without consulting those in whose judgement I can place
confidence. I feel sorrow not only on account of the injury it is to do to the school, and on your account, but more especially
for the circumstances that have called me away from you. I found my Dear Mother if anything worse than I expected, for I could not
help flattering myself that my friends were unnecessarily
alarmed, and even now when every one tells me I must make up my mind to part with her soon, I find myself still clinging to every ray of hope.
You must excuse me my dear friend from writing much at present, for I am not able to control my feelings enough to say much about it. O! Miss Baldwin write to me, and come and see me. I shall be very very happy to see you.
I had a very bad time coming home being sick enough to vomit before I left it, and continued so till I reached Manchester where I was obliged to wait nearly an hour for my brother, so
that when I reached home I was ready as soon as I laid aside my bonnet to go on to the bed and it was nearly another hour before I could feel in any condition to go in to my mother.
Mr. Courser will probably tell you my mother's situation. So that it will not be necessary for me to enter into particulars. I shall look for a letter from you soon. I will leave now for Miss Orr who will confirm what I have written as it
regards my duty about coming back. My love to all of my scholars who may enquire for me and believe me ever your--
Aff. and never ending Friend
Ann Elizabeth R.
[The letter continues by Ann Orr:]
Dear Miss Baldwin,
Believing myself able fully to sympathize with you in your present trying circumstances, I take the liberty to say, that in
view of the whole case, I consider it evidently Ann Elizabeth's duty to continue with her Mother the little time she may have to
live, even, if the best help could be procured to attend upon her. No one could possibly supply the affectionate attendance of
a dear daughter. No compensation could make up for the loss that, daughter must sustain in being absent from the bed side of such a Mother, at such a time. I am persuaded if you were here,
yourself you would in full view, of all that you and the school will suffer, by her absence, say "it is right." With respect to your examinations, never mind it. The candid and intelligent
will make due allowances. Others are not worth--.
With deep sympathy for you in your labors and perplexities, affectionately yours.
P.S. [written by Ann Elizabeth R.] I have thought that if you wished it and nothing should happen to prevent, I would come down
to examination, that is, if I can come down and return the same day. I say this conditionally as I know not what may happen between this and that. Will you please to write me soon what you
would like about it, for if I should think of something I should like to dictate a little about my [?]. I feel that if I should go, I should place myself in an unpleasant situation, feeling that if I should have the classes all the time myself, my fears
would be very great that some of them would not do justice to the care and attention bestowed upon them.
However, I would be willing to come to you upon the conditions mentioned if you wished it. I am not in the habit of asking any one to excuse the mistakes made in a letter but I will
ask you to do so in this for I have had everything to take off my attention.
Yrs. A.E. [Ann Elizabeth R.]