W1435 TO DR. CALVIN BROOKS MCQUESTEN from his friend Annie L. Cantrell
Nov 12 1875
To: Dr. Calvin Brooks McQuesten, New York
From: [101 W29th St., New York]
Yours received was somewhat surprised at the contents. Was not aware that you had given me the opportunity of saying "Indeed" to you. When we parted the last time I expected to have gone up to your house in a few days but was prevented by various things interfering. Rather wondered that you did not call but thought perhaps you were busy. At last I made my way up to see you early one evening, borrowed book in hard to be returned. Was told at the door that you were not in and then that you were in the country. Perhaps you can not imagine the state of my mind. Had had no answer to my letter; had not seen or heard from you for several weeks, and there was all my trouble for nothing, and you off to the country. Since you did not consider it worth your while letting me know that you were to be out of the city, I instantly resolved that I would not trouble you with my presence for sometime to come, the book would wait my convenience.
Miss McFarland and I are hesitating whether to be friends or not. I want either to be real good friends or else only passing acquaintances when we may chance to meet. She says that it is all my fault, that she wishes to be firm friends; but I am almost afraid to trust her. When I am away from her and have little to say to her, I do not care anything for her; but when we are intimate then I care more for her than I have ever cared for anyone in my life. She says that she cares for me, but I do not believe her. I hope all this is interesting to you. Do not know how I came to write, it has somehow it came into my head and down it went on the paper. Miss Lobias is in the city at last and we see quite a good deal of each other. Think I shall go to see Booth tomorrow if the day is clear.
Am sorry that the hard times affect you. You have my sympathy although I am no worse off than usual. It would be almost impossible for one to be. I am taking German again: only three in the class. If I were not constitutionally lazy, might learn quite a stack of words and phrases. As it is, hope that some will fall and stick from natural adhesiveness. Some things do. My cousin, has been in Indianapolis all the fall and is talking of spending the winter there, is having a fine time, has at her command a pair of the finest horses in the place, coachmen and footmen thrown in. Old friends of her father and mother.
Should you have nothing better to do and feel so disposed, call and you would find me home next Tuesday Evening. Do not know about a stew but will give you half an old apple that I have had for some time. Teachers will not be paid until next week. Your information was therefore incorrect. Perhaps I will return your book before Thanksgiving.
P.S. What was that to represent down in the corner of your letter? A spider? Think I could draw a better one than that.
A. [Annie] L. Cantrell
101 W29th St.