W2809 Rev. Thomas Baker's letter on shyness.
Jan 1 1870 ESTIMATED DATE
It is not without hesitation that I have been induced to intend myself upon your notice at this time; but I pressure so much upon your benevolence, as to believe that you are devoted to the sense of humanity in general, and that you will esteem an opportunity to alleviate the sufferings, or to increase the happiness of a fellow creature are about worthy to enlist your sympathies and active exertions, I will therefore proceed at once to beg my case before you; and I hope that if very one of your number has suffered from the same cause, I has found itself he will extend to me not only his sympathy but the remedy which he found if relief in the cure of the malady.- It is no now string with me, indeed I cannot recollect the time return. I was free from it, & I have sometimes thought it might be an [unitary??] complaint for my parents and grand-parents and I believe all their descendants have suffered in a greater or less degree from it, though since of them have been so fortunate as newly to outlives it. One of the most singular features of the disease is, that it never mistakes me when I am alone or in the presence of my over familiar acquaintances mainly. But the moment to find myself in the presence of a stranger I experienced a must uncomfortable sensation, so violent sometimes as to effect my process of locomotion & of speech ever & even conscious at the time that it makes my manners awkward & explained, and she's only measured the difficulty toll that I can neither look move or speak naturally. This is especially the care when I am in a social party or way place where there is a considerable number of persons assembled. If I attempt to speak I am sure to say just what I would not speak such, and I cannot enjoy a moment can, unless perchance I can send away into some corner where? I am sit without changing my [??] till the form of dispersed arrived. In short I am an afflicted man, and until I can get the latter of my complaint I think I shall exclude myself from society as much as possible. Any salutary advice in the subject will be received as a most valuable service enclosed to,
Your humble servant
A bashful man